With my feet on the baseline for the first time in weeks With my head on tightened shoulders I can't stand to speak Always the same. I'm freezing cold Kill me. Please.

My teeth they chatter, with the cold wind settled in my mouth and I'm finding over years that I might exhale Old sick and slow can I be happy with brittle bones? Old sick and slow I'll take my life before I'm too old is that selfish? Be fine with failing health as I hoard my possessions do I really have to suffer through? Death can be the end. Death can be the end of pointless existence Happy as nothing more.

It's all what you show play a game with everyone fake a smile for your friends and paint a mask of you better Hide the fact that you're sad again momentary actions show whats really going on I don't do anything anymore just lay in bed and count my scars with tally marks. I'll be better when I drown in the deep end maybe you can breathe life in me I'll cough this up from my lungs and I'll know I'm something I'll know i'm something more.

I wish life was like it was that day we'd all be better off if we saw the beauty in the trees In my head I saw God and it was us In my head I saw God and we were he Don't let your life destroy your life

Washing off my face in the sink take one last look at myself I see clearly staring back at me empty eyes so I find my way outside lay on the ground I played on as a child it all feels right so I take handfuls of white tabs swill them down my throat evacuate my belly of all remorse Let my eyes roll back, I can see my skull. Tell them I'm sorry.

I feel tired I feel worthless theres always something in my head that tells me "Your friends won't cry when you're dead, you'll fade away" I can never accept that someone might care about my existence I've been thinking of peeling back my skin and letting my insides show and maybe my friends wont care just one bit but I hope that I'll live forever in back of your head I'll live forever.

Wait for myself to overreact you could get something better don't waste your time I'll see you still pretend you're just a stranger. My eyes see only pavement muscles tense I can't speak you know I tried to be what you are but evils not my color I tell myself you're not real that you've become a ghost and you're floating in and out of my head and in and out of existence I see right through you so transparently your hearts been decomposing for years for years you've been so distant from morality so stop haunting me On and on and on and on I tell myself to look away. Hiding behind a thick clothe deny you ever saw my eyes reflecting off yours cut off the lips you kissed burn everything with your name turn my head when you call me I tell myself you're not real that you've become a ghost and you're floating in and out of my head and in and out of existence I see right through you so transparently your hearts been decomposing for years for years you've been so distant from morality so stop haunting me cause you're dead to me and I'm too old to believe in ghosts try to be silent while shaking when I see you with your friends I'll suffer endlessly. Oh, I'll see you til' the death. when I think it's done I'll stop to look and I'll see you.